I don't see myself as a writer

    My name is Michelle Lin, currently attending East West school of international Studies, Where I feel like I'm surrounded in different diversity. Where I get to read different types of writing about different cultural, but when it comes to myself I really don't see myself as a writer at all. I'm not confident enough about my writing/work. I also freak out when it comes to public speaking. Since English is not my native language, I fell like my writing aren't good enough nor does it make sense. I also thinks that no one would understand what I write. I think more of the negative things. I am the type of person who doesn't like to read or write. Even if I find something that I'll be interested in, but just thinking about that I have to read it. It just pulls me down. I sure that I'm more of a listener/observer, because I'm shy and likes to keep things to myself instead of telling. From experience being shy is not a good characteristic. 

    There are many major pieces of writing I could remember I did outside school.  Every piece of writing is important to me because one by one it improves my writing skills. One continuously writing I remember the most are the posts I did in my blog. I post when I'm feeling something strong. I also like to write out my anger. After typing I would feel much better, I'm think I'm more comfortable about writing then public speaking. Actually I write a lot of things about my family, my friends, and things base on relationships. I complain a lot in my writing. I complain about how life's not fair and "why does my life have to be this way". I question a lot about myself and how this world can be so cruelty.

    Currently I'm working on my College Essays, I'm getting so frustrated. I have to make sure its in good writing and have it edit by several people. The college process is pain in the butt, we have so little time to get everything together. Everything's in a rush so by the time when we are in college, I'll be like "Wow, I came through that process." Good luck to myself.