When she said that she "blames herself for death of her nieces", I couldn’t understand why, because she was so young and she couldn’t have prevented anything, and if she tried, she was gonna be killed. That was kinda sad for me because I do value loved ones and if the people I loved were to be killed in front of me I would be devastated and I'd probably blame myself too, but that's because I'm old enough and strong enough to do something, but if I were young, I knew I could not stand up to the ones who killed them. I understand the whole concept of feeling bad for such a tragic thing, but blaming yourself is a waste of energy because what happened happened and couldn’t have happened any other way.
Also Rosa told us personally that she still is "haunted by the" of times long passed, and just the overall aura I felt from her, she was hurting from it. A part of felt really bad that he experienced this and her talking about it, I felt guilty, like we were milking her for info. That's what I don’t like about the human mind, it can never forget. I guess it’s for the best so that events of the past can possibly be prevented. I think I may have misunderstood her though, because yes she said she still is haunted, but I don’t think she holds onto the past and lets it hinder her, and that's what I thought she meant. Unfortunately I need more insight on what she meant. It’s bad to let the past hinder you because progression is thus made impossible. You become too fearful to move toward the future, and the emotions control your life, and negative emotions are a poison to the human soul.
I really enjoyed her visit, but I’ll still have the same outlook to other people. I remember that she said she “expected America to help her” and I was like that would only cause more problems because would get involved in problems outside American borders and trouble us futher. I don’t care about you if your life doesn’t intertwine with mine in some way. Worrying about other people makes myself suffer because my focus isn’t I‘ll never see this person ever in my life, and I’ll never get compensation for it. I’ll respect them and their dilemmas and won’t poke fun at them but that's about all strangers will get from me. Rosa is probably the only person who got more reaction from me than just about anyone else.