Anger

    sometimes parents dont understand you, sometimes they fight with you, and sometimes the forget how hard it is to be a teenager. i dont really argue with my parents a lot but when i do it's really hard because it really hurts you feelings and what happens is it makes me want to separate myself from them. i dont like that feeling. when my stepmom gets really mad she says things that are, really hurtful and make me feel like she doesnt care or love me at all. which sucks. and if i could tell something to all the parents of the world i would say that they should try really hard to remember how difficult and scary it is to be a teenager and that were going through more things than we often tell you about because were afraid to look like a kid. so parents, try to understand our pain and hurt. 

On December 3rd my principal wrote a memo. She said that an example of a disturbing behavior that I have encountered is "punching or kicking holes in walls." When I read this part of the memo I was sort of surprised at this behavior. I did notice some strange holes on the walls in the stairwells. I did not know that one of the students did that. I only have a couple ideas on trying to fix this behavior. The first idea is completely changing the stairwell walls by adding a material that is more sturdy. The second idea I have is to try to find the person/people creating these holes and putting them in anger management classes when found.

I'm holding onto a rope
I should have cut
And let go a long time ago
Feeling the pain
Of your absence and presence
I'm slowly deteriorating
My heart cries out
This love that was found
Three years ago
That still haunts my dreams
Til this very day
A knife that cuts so deep
I bleed tears of confusion
Flowing from my body
Like water from a well
Filling up and running over
My very soul
Dried streams
On my face
As I think of what was
And what could have been
But is no longer
Nor will ever be
Leftover emotions
I must throw them out
Like all those tissues
Gone to waste because of you
I should cry no longer
But I'm not that strong yet
So I'll stick to my book
And write down my madness
Madness for and over you
I still love you...

In DEAR yesterday, we had an advisory session. We talked about the Bible and how people don't follow all the rules in there. It started off with the topic of liking someone so much, then finding out that they are either gay or lesbian. Some people said they would be hurt and would stop talking to them or treat them rudely. But when people say words like "faggot," it somewhat offends me, not only on my behalf but on my friends' behalf too. Boys have problems with two gay men walking down the street, but they have no problem with lesbians kissing each other. From boys to then call people "faggots," it's ridiculous. Besides that, the last time I checked, the meaning of faggot is:

Faggot:

• bind or tie up in or as if in a faggot; "faggot up the sticks"
• faggot: a bundle of sticks and branches bound together

It doesn't make sense to call someone a name like that if you don't know the true meaning. So people should think before they speak when they say these words.;

P.S. Thank you for apologizing yesterday, Sadiq! :D