Recently, I've fallen in love. The feeling in my heart was, like, making me hyper so much. I felt excited, but nervous at the same time. I feel like the guy I fell in love with is my true love. We fell in love with each other. He's the one for me :)

Ever since then, I've always felt impatient to talk to him. His voice sounded so soothing that it makes you feel relaxed and just express how you feel. I've never felt like this before in my whole life! :D This love felt different from the other "love" I felt. I've been thinking about him for most of the time non-stop. My heart races at the speed of a vampire running at its fullest. My mind is just full of him. I believe this is true love :)

Now, about the other "love" I had felt. Before, everytime I saw my crush,  I would feel shy to talk to him. But my mind wasn't thinking about him for a long time. My heart didn't beat so fast. I never knew what love can really be back then, until the day I really fell in love.

                             What is Happiness?

 Happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings you the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run. True happiness is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.

Living with the regrets of my past
But also remembering how it made my present
Did it get better
Or am I still the same heartbroken girl?
My appearance has changed
My self esteem is improved
I observe then act
Not the other way around
I can't let things get to me
But they seem as they do
I have to back down
To see my light shine through
Your darkness
That contaminates my peace
With your very presence
 

 

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The song "Two is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls featuring Taylor Swift is a touching song basically about a couples relationship and how happy they are. This song goes through their memories from their first time seeing eachother to how they felt when they got together. The romance between this couple that explains the emotions that ran through them as they saw or touched their significant other is so deep and passionate. This is the type of song that makes me wonder what it's like to have a true love. It makes me believe that there is someone perfect for EVERYone out there. It's a cute song and I was just listening to it on Z100 and it reminds me of different experiences in my life. I want to be happy and so does everyone else. There's someone out there, that God has placed on this earth... for me. I just wanted to hear some feedback on this song and explain how you feel when you read these lyrics and what you like or dislike about this song and why. When I used to listen to this song, I would get chills. Please respond to this post. Thanks :D

I think a good poem is writing what you are feeling and just let it flow through you letting the raw emotion fly from your heart to your mind freeing itself through your hand, and bleeding on to the paper like blood at a crime scene telling a story. This makes the read feel and care about what your saying as your words paint a picture opening the world to your feeling and emotions. Painting a window to your soul.

“Writing a poem is discovering” ~ Robert Frost~      http://thinkexist.com/quotations/poetry

 

I write poetry in a part of my quest in finding myself to guild my self in the right path so I know that I am going the right way in my journey. I believe that we all try to find out who we really are and that's why we question, or why we seek answers in religion and other things. I believe that that's the reason why we seek knowledge. The reason Why we question why we live.Some of use never sure what the point of living anymore because why live with no reason to keep living.

 

    sometimes parents dont understand you, sometimes they fight with you, and sometimes the forget how hard it is to be a teenager. i dont really argue with my parents a lot but when i do it's really hard because it really hurts you feelings and what happens is it makes me want to separate myself from them. i dont like that feeling. when my stepmom gets really mad she says things that are, really hurtful and make me feel like she doesnt care or love me at all. which sucks. and if i could tell something to all the parents of the world i would say that they should try really hard to remember how difficult and scary it is to be a teenager and that were going through more things than we often tell you about because were afraid to look like a kid. so parents, try to understand our pain and hurt. 

The music, those songs, made that show. From the beginning, that's what draws in the viewer. Everything was sublime in terms of music. Without it, that show was mediocre at best. Others may argue that the original was better because its plot was more thought-out, but I can't find it in me to sit and watch it. The music isn't quite as mind-blowing, it's not as infectious. I love the voices the two main heroines provide have. Such control, so unique, and so different. They have wonderful range, and together they have beautiful harmony. Even if either character angers me, I forget that as soon as they open their mouths and sing. It's really amazing. The composers for this show are its saviors.

    I've always had an interesting relationship with my own emotions. Without going into an in depth discussion about our feelings, however, I think we can all agree that it doesn't matter who you are, emotions play a big role in our lives, even if we regard them as a nuisance.



I just read a Wikipedia Article," Nursing Ethics", Wikipedia: The free Encyclopedia. 25 November 2009, .http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Nursing_ethics&oldid=327845562. I strongly agree with the article because, in order to be in this field you have to care for the person in order to make a positive impact on their lives. If you didn't care about the person you wouldn't really care if they stayed alive or died.

One sentence from this article that stands out for me is "The focus of nursing ethics is on developing a caring relationship.". I think this is true because, usually when people don't care about someone you can tell from their emotions. So, when you act this way towards the patient they won't open up to you and their wouldn't be a good relationship.

Have you ever had a friend that you'd be cool with but never saw yourself going out with them? But then you get their number and call them chatting on the phone for hours. Talking to them about life, love, friends, emotional experiences... just everything. Then you meet up with them and chill with them for the whole day. After a while you say, "well maybe... naw!" and brush it off until the next time you see them and you feel butterflies when you see them.Your heart beats faster as you feel their presence draw closer. You're attached to the hip but you want it to be at heart and lips. Does it happen or do you make the first move? I'm at that point. Willing to give up everything to see if I have this one chance with them. You start to love them more than just a friend and yearn to be around them all the time. You see them give you a look and feel their touch but in a different way than usual. Is it my mind playing tricks on me? Could it be they're right for you after all this time? What happens if I make the first move? I guess I'll never know until I find out...

Every time I want
And every time I need
The pain in my eyes
Will never let them bleed
My eyes start to blur
And my ears go deaf
But when I try to cry
There's no tears left
All this stress
Is building in my mind
I look inside me
And try to go blind
Because it seems like
There's nothing inside
Except the pain that
Doesn't show on the outside.

 


I am exploring buildings/landscapes. I am interested in this because I live in a big and beautiful city full of different, unique, and sometimes quirky buildings.

I'm holding onto a rope
I should have cut
And let go a long time ago
Feeling the pain
Of your absence and presence
I'm slowly deteriorating
My heart cries out
This love that was found
Three years ago
That still haunts my dreams
Til this very day
A knife that cuts so deep
I bleed tears of confusion
Flowing from my body
Like water from a well
Filling up and running over
My very soul
Dried streams
On my face
As I think of what was
And what could have been
But is no longer
Nor will ever be
Leftover emotions
I must throw them out
Like all those tissues
Gone to waste because of you
I should cry no longer
But I'm not that strong yet
So I'll stick to my book
And write down my madness
Madness for and over you
I still love you...

     I've been going insane lately because the radio is full of love songs that don't make sense. It seems like the whole world is full of love songs that don't make sense. I would like to just once hear a love song that sticks to the facts instead of delving into crazy-town or making me uncomfortable with overly emotional lyrics.

 I am exploring contrast. I am interested in this because contrast can give a deeper emotion to an image as well as a more descriptive story. Also, contrast can capture a person's attention at what was intended to be the focal point of the image.
 

My last post I wrote about how music can affect a person's mood, and just last night I realized music also has a huge affect on people during movies or TV shows. My mother was watching a show called Ghost Whisperer, and I sat in with her for a while. While I was watching, two people began to fight. The music playing was fast tempo and somewhat upbeat, as if to imply that they were simply engaging in friendly banter, which was definitely not the case. They were fighting and arguing, and their bodies were tense. The lead character was even crying. The music was so distracting that I stopped listening to what the people were saying. Instead of getting into the upset mood of the characters, I felt extremely annoyed with the cheesy music.

A while back I was watching Final Destination, one of the corniest horror movies ever. I was poking fun at the movie and doing voice-overs with my friends, when I started to hear a high pitch violin playing. I suddenly sunk into this intense mood, focusing completely on the TV. Some lady was walking around her house making coffee, and yet the music was making me scared.
    

What's the point of living
With no reason to live?
What's the point of giving
With nothing to give?
What's the point of hoping
With nothing to hope for?
What's the point of getting
If you only want  more?
Whats the point of feeling
if your emotions don't show?
What's a destonation
With no place to go?
Why go to the store
With no money to buy?
Why tell the truth
when the truth is a lie?

Today was a better day for me. I went with my mom to her university. When we got back, my mom and I took my little sis to the park. I was somewhat saddened when my sister's insecurity did not allow her to interact with kids her age. She refused to play and kept on repeating that everyone was starring at her, she said they were laughing at her. I was getting so frustrated with her. I kept on saying to her that no one was looking at her and to have fun, but in the back of my head I knew exactly how she felt. I acted the same way she was at her age, but instead of sympathizing with her, I demanded her to play.  Once I analyzed our connection, I tired to make her feel more at ease and comfortable. I played with her and made her feel apart. She made a friend and I was ecstatic. I really hope my sis does not grow up to fast because she feels like she has no other choice. I grew up to fast and I regret it more then anything in the world. I will not let the same thing happen to her. It ruined me. Yes, my little sis is physically bigger then the average 8 yr old but she is still one mentally.

The flare that was meant to keep me alive and happy only turned out to be a fireball filled with anger and resentment unto those who have done physical, emotional, and mental damage to me.The light

    "For as long as man has walked the earth, music has been a vital part of our culture, lifestyle, and collective memory"

Image: 
"I iz not a leetle lamb"

This picture reminds me of when my friends and I saw a baby raccoon sitting in the doorway of  Apple Bee

I have been reading more and finding more information about relationship and love. I have been talking with my sister about this topic.

So tonight I was sitting downstairs in my dads fiances house, doing our usual family devotion.

The Giver by Lois Lowry: Jonas has been going through a lot of pain and misery in his life and I feel really bad for him that he has to go through all this pain and misery and he came out learning

I'm learning more about teenage depression right now, and in particular what I'm wondering about is what harm can depression cause on a teenager in their lives and on themselves.

      "What is love", the question i been writing for a while. I think that i should write a new question, because i can't think of anything to write about.

I'm thinking that I wrote enough about this topic already. Love is just a feeling that is towards some one else. It can be in your family, friends,and boyfriend or girlfriend.

Dear Diary,     

I'm learning more about insecurity right now, and in particular what I'm wondering about is:How people keep good relationships with a significant other if they are consumed by insecurity..

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